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Bullets and Photos

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* Although I did use her real name in my first post, going forward, the babe shall again be known as Olivia. I wanted you all to know that we did change the middle name (to my middle name) at the last minute.
* She loves to eat and is not so big on the sleeping yet. Soon, I hope, since my milk came in today and I also discovered that she enjoys sleeping on the boppy. Dangerous, I know. I am not condoning this method for anyone else. But I’m tired.
* I am completely over the moon for her.
* She looks just like Bud as a baby.
* Both big kids are doing well. It’s a bit of an emotional adjustment, but they are hanging in there.
* I had many comments about posting from the hospital—I was bored as crap there. It will be much more sporadic from home, I assure you. I am Tweeting pretty regularly though.
* Here are the photos since I am hungry and thirsty and have already been online dealing with my disability pay for an hour. GAH!

It’s The Final Countdown!!

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Can you even believe it?

I started writing about this surprise pregnancy in November and by this time tomorrow, it will be over. While going by, it was excruciatingly slow, but now it seems to have gone so fast!! It’s crazy!

It all started with me crying hysterically on the day after Thanksgiving, to find a brand new Kitchenaid Mixer in my cupboard. (I maintain that I would have cried over the Kitchenaid regardless of hormones) and Swistle called it even before I did.

There was the nausea.
There were migraines, some of the worst I’ve ever had, and I am a migraine person.
There were the (way too many) jerky outbursts at work. (ok, here at home too)

But also, there were all of you. So many of you who were there for me on a daily basis, so many who laughed and cried right along with me. I don’t know what I would have done without all of you. Honestly—-the majority of you are linked to the left. The personal emails outside of the comments, always knowing the right thing to say… guys really are the greatest.

This is what’s different about the internets—I wouldn’t call my best girlfriend and tell her all of this crap day after day. But you guys….you’re here. You listen. Again, the greatest.

So enough of the mush, right? (Trust me, the mush will be gone in approximately 18 hours)

How am I feeling???


I think I’d prefer to not know the date our baby would be born. With Bud we went in for our regular appointment and were told ‘he’s huge, today is the day.’ Lucy came on her own early, because, well, she’s Lucy and is full of surprises. Having a for certain expiration date is stressful to a degree that I can not even explain. People who have scheduled c-sections and whatnot….I just don’t know how they deal knowing months in advance what I have known for a week. Hub compares it to knowing the date you are going to die. For real. Just TMI.

But at least I was able to get a good nap in today, knowing full well that I will not sleep for another 2 years (a 3 hour nap will totally offset the 2 years, right?) And at least the kids know exactly what is happening.

There’s no getting out of it now, right?

Wish me luck ok? And if you’re the praying type do that too. I really am freaking out.

I’m hoping to Tweet from the hospital as well as do a mobile post with her stats. Pictures will come later though; I plan on being home sometime on Thursday and who knows when I’ll get on the actual computer.

Much love to you internets. 🙂


What Actually Happened & BONUS Family Photo Horror

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Oh, hi there! It’s me….the one who could have had her baby yesterday, but panicked and high-tailed it out of the hospital.

We had our portraits done at 3PM yesterday and then I dropped Hub, and the kids off at Tae Kwon Do while I ran over to the bank and the grocery store for dinner. It was raining pretty badly and on my way in to the store I noticed how slippery the bottoms of my flip-flops flt on the painted crosswalk in the parking lot. I made sure to take extra care on my way out, as it was still pouring, but then, out of the blue, I was on the ground on my hands and knees. I’m still not actually sure what happened, but the feeling in my ankle would suggest that somehow it twisted and I lost my balance. A woman ran over to help me up as I was in the middle of the crosswalk, and cars passing by just stared. I was mortified. I insisted I was OK, and let her help me back to my car, where I sat and shook for a few minutes before heading back over to TKD.

It didn’t really occur to me to call the doctor right away, but after being home for a bit, and having had contractions since the time I fell, I decided to call just to see. She was concerned about placental abruption, so suggested that I go in and get checked out. Which I did. The on call doctor was nice, the first man-OB I’ve ever dealt with, but it was no big deal. He checked me out, ran a whole bunch of tests, and I contracted every 5 minutes the entire time. The nurses had told me that since my cervix wasn’t changing from the contractions, they’d probably send me home. I thought I was disappointed.

Hub left for a bit to go set his employee up at a job since I was just laying there anyway, waiting for test results. The doctor, nurse and med student came in soon after all “so, how do YOU feel?? Do you think you’re in labor??? What do you think you want to do????” and so on. It was as if they were saying “We’re not going to say let’s induce right now, but if you say the word, we will.” I told them I felt trapped, and weird and that they were really freaking me out. The doctor said “Bottom line, we can get things going if you want to but who knows how long it will take. If I were you, I would go home, eat something (because I hadn’t) and sleep and see how things play out.” So that’s what I chose to do.

Which is why I’m not complaining about still being pregnant today because it’s my own damn fault.


I hate our family photos. Actually, I like the way that I look in one of them, but the rest of the family looks like a bunch of dolts. The others, they look OK and I look like death. Lucy was difficult for most of them as evidenced by her fake forced smile, and somehow Bud channeled an old man. We ordered only the family shot of all of us head on, and the one of the kids back to back. The one of us all sideways is the one that I actually like. So here they are in no particular order….

Then and Now

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The first time, I was scared of everything. The entire process of labor and delivery, having an epidural, getting an IV for the first time, what if I pooped on the table???. You name it; I was terrified. I knew that labor and delivery was inevidible though I plugged along pretending that it was no big deal. It was no surprise that I had a nervous breakdown upon hearing that I was 5cm and needed to get to the hospital so they could make me contract. Screaming sobbing incoherent breakdown, mind you, and I think that if I had carried on any longer, Hub would have smacked me. Everything happened though. Sure, the 1st IV didn’t take and my vien burst. Sure, they gave me way too much pitocin and I was in agony. Sure, I pushed for 4 hours, so hard that muscles I didn’t even know I had ached. And sure, I ripped, tore and was cut and had a zillion stitches but really, before I knew it, it was over and I was eating the best chicken salad sandwich of my life while my baby boy was being cleaned up and brought to me for the first time.

The second time was not so scary. While I never bought in to (and I still don’t) that crap about “as soon as the baby is out, you forget it all”, at least I knew what to expect. I knew the doctor and midwife, the hospital, the labor and delivery process…..I was golden. Until I went in to labor a whole lot quicker than I’d expected to. Until my body started pushing our baby girl out involuntarily as the epidural was being placed. Until I pushed said baby out with no drugs. Until she was sick and unable to room with me; unable to bond with me….or I with her. Until I went through the worst period of depression I have ever gone through. Until I thought “Oh my God, what if I never love her?” It took 2 months—until she was hospitalized for an infection, and we finally bonded…3 days in the hospital together as it should have been to begin with. And indeed, everything was just fine.

This time, has been scary. It’s definitely the hardest pregnancy I’ve endured. I worry about her blood sugar and being seperated from her in the hospital. I worry about our change in family dynamic; mostly the impact of changing Lucy from baby to middle child. I worry about the possibility of a c-section, and recovery. I worry about being responsible for 3 young children and I wonder how I will ever do it. The time….the money….the energy. It will be fine though, right? We’ll make it through just as we did before? We will, right?

Tomorrow we will be going for a family portrait; the four of us for the very last time. And within the next six days, our family will change–a new baby girl. Taking us from four to five. Changing all of our lives forever.

For the better.

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I noticed a really big difference in procedure on Friday, when comparing my new(er) OBGYN to the one who delivered Bud and Lucy. We were discussing how big Olivia currently is, and how I pushed with Bud for 4 hours and ended up needing a vacuum to get him out. To say that my current doctor was horrified was an understatement. Old practice was a very holistic doctor and 2 midwives (all of whom have left which is why I left) and new practice is 3 youngish (30-40) straight up doctors. Current doctor let me know in no uncertain terms that in the case of Bud, she would have performed a c-section with no questions asked AND in the case of Olivia, the second she has a concern, a c-section it will be. My feelings? I’ve already pushed out 2 9-10lb babies, one with no epidural, and the largest one was posterior. Unless she is breech or in distress, there will be no c-section. (Even if it does mean that I get to stay in the hospital longer)

We had a busy weekend, and I can say with 98% certainty that we are ready for the baby. Bassinet and car seat are set. We bought diapers yesterday ($37 for 216 size 1 diapers= $.17 a piece. Am I really that tied to Pampers Swaddlers?? I am.) and the house is reasonably clean. Regardless of anything, no matter what, in one week and one day, we will have a new baby.

Hub and I discussed the difference in knowing when you are having the baby vs. not knowing. His biggest disappointment? No action shot of me before we leave for the hospital. I thought about showing them to you….but they are not good. So just imagine me post nervous breakdown upon hearing that I was 5cm and must go be induced for Bud and then in hardcore active labor with Lucy, standing in the kitchen, sweaty and sullen at 3AM.

As much as I have been miserable, I am going to miss feeling this baby girl wiggling around in my belly. I’m trying to remember that and be positive in this last week. I can’t believe this has been going on since November….and now we’re here.

W I N N E R ! ! ! ! (and baby update….)

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I was not even a little bit surprised that the winner of last week’s contest was who she was. And sorry, Tessie it’s not you. But thanks for wishing like, an 11lb baby on me.

The winner actually is my good blogging friend Misty, who consistently is on the same wavelength as I am. Not only was she 100% on with the size and cm, but she left her comment within minutes of the ultrasound tech giving us the results. Crazy, right?

So, I will have 2 prizes in the mail this week. (Sorry for my tardiness, Sarah)

Aaaaanyhooo, what were the results?? As of Friday, baby weighed in at 7lbs 14ounces and I am 1.5 cm. Of course after what I ate this weekend, she could very well weigh 10lbs by now. The doctor has changed her tune to you’ve proved that you can birth a big baby, so let’s wait til 39-weeks. Um, whatever.

LoriD wanted to know how I felt about that, and part of me is disappointed. BUT! If we were going at 38 weeks, that would mean 1 week until baby time. Yeah, I can’t have a baby in a week!!! I need at least 2!! I need like 5 more!!! Ok, not really, but when it creeps up on you, it is a bit scary.

Sadly, sitting home all day is not giving me much blog fodder. I do have a meme to do, so maybe I’ll get to that tonight. For now, I am folding 986 burp cloths and 347 bibs. Send help and booze. kthanksbai!

Quick Update

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*baby is still most definitely a girl—the tech pointed out “her area” and referred to it as a hamburger bun. Which was weirdly uncomfortable.
*we got some really good shots of her face, which is chubby to say the least. And she definitely has Hub’s lips (so do Lucy and Bud—big, full lips)
*I have a UTI!! But the meds are actually letting me pee productively, which is a huge relief. (pun intended–I slay me!!!)
*her head is down, but her feet are curled up around her head, whatever that means.
*we are opting to probably wait one more week to have her—unless she comes on her own first, putting us at 7/28. This decision was made pre-sonogram, so don’t go changing your answers.
*She will be a big healthy girl, fo sho!
*I have way too much work to do to be screwing around on the computer, so off I go.

Status Updates I Could have posted to Facebook, but Saved for Here

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…mysteriously has only one swollen ankle. Or Kankle.

…is glad that the third time around, she remembers that all of the hair she has grown on her belly does go away.

…practiced really great parenting on the 4th of July.

…had happy kids over the holiday weekend.

…doesn’t think that the Jon and Kate Plus 8 music video should make her blubber like a baby, but somehow, it does.

…is deathly afraid of water, and projected such fears on to her children. She eventually gave in though, and Bud lived.

…doesn’t give a rat’s ass about “his needs” when she is 36-weeks pregnant.

…is 36 weeks pregnant!!!! Her belly is bigger than her boobs!!

…looks like a sumo wrestler (with great hair).

…coughed so hard in the middle of the night that she threw up on the living room carpet. Cleaning up your own vomit at 2AM is very glamorous.

…is embarrassed when Lucy uses baby talk. Not because it’s stupid and annoying (which it is), but because she wants everyone to know how smart and well spoken her 3-year-old actually is.

…is maybe a little bit shallow.

…definitely needs more sleep.

…can’t wait to meet her new baby girl.

Dying from the Cuteness!!

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This was one of the gifts I got yesterday—I actually bough the same dress in green for my girlfriend.

I am in love with brown!!!

These are hand-me-downs from a friend—but her daughter never wore them.

Yes, NIKE Booties!!

Today is my first official day home and I am washing baby clothes and taking it easy as my hip has decided to completely give out. I’m not complaining though, since, like I said, NO WORK!!

Construction has completely begun out front and our sidewalks and driveway were the first to go. I am trapped in the driveway until lunch time. I have no plans until this afternoon though, so it is all good!

I can’t belive it is only 9:45; the kids were up at 6:30. I am ready for MY nap!!

Finally, I am totally not used to our keyboard at home; it is way less sensitive than mine at work so a lot of my words are ending up with missing letters. Hopefully, spell heck is working!

If I Say It Enough, It Will Be True

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4 weeks from now. 4 weeks from now. 4 weeks from now.

Four weeks from now is my tentative induction week. My practice induces Monday through Wednesday. Hub wants Wednesday. Whatever, dude. 4 weeks from now. Of course, we will know more on the 11th which is when I have my internal scheduled for 9:15 AM and my sonogram scheduled for 12:30 PM. But I am banking on 4 weeks from now, July 21-23, having this baby.

4 weeks from now. If I keep saying it, it might just be true.

Hub went with me to my OB visit today, not for any particular reason, but more for “why not?”. It was uneventful per usual. The ball is completely in my court as far as when I would like to stop working, so I will show up to work for a few hours on next Tuesday and be done with it. Then I will happily collect my bonus at the end of the month.

I had to have Hub take Lucy to gymnastics on Saturday on account of being unable to walk. When he came home, he immediately took Bud to Tae Kwon Do for photos, and after that FIL took both kids to a cousin’s T-ball game so I worked on laundry while Hub did kitchen stuff. We ended up having a killer fight while they were out, that I don’t really want to talk about, but that partially because of my hormones and partially because of his temper left me completely out of control. Things are fine, but I’m still not over it. I can’t even think about it without having to fight back tears.

So let’s move on…

We cooked and ate in the yard Saturday night and just as we were gearing up to make s’mores, we had a thunderstorm and pouring rain. The fire lasted long enough to toast 2 marshmallows and make 2 s’mores. It was a fun filled family activity, short of my neighbor being perched on her deck throwing comments at us. “Hey Sara, that’s a lot of baby in there, huh?” “Sara, are you sure that’s a girl? Looks like a boy to me!!”

The kids were up late, but they didn’t sleep in on Sunday. Hub got right up and started working and I am pleased to say that short of paint and molding on the walls and ceiling, a bit of edgework, and the floor being laid, the kitchen is done!! The breakfast nook is done!! It is beautiful!!! I am more than pleased. Meanwhile, I sat around on the couch, took a luxurious 30-minute shower, put the bouncy seat together, and chopped meat and veggies for dinner. Much less productive, I know.

Soon it will be over though. 4 weeks from now.