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Tiiired Rambling

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For the third time in a row I’ve caught the mildest possible version of Ed’s or one of the kids’ colds.  It’s enough to have me feeling tired and run down, but not enough to have me unable to breathe and wishing that I could take meds when I can’t so I guess I have it good.  All the extra vitamins must be making me moderately immune.

Still though, I am feeling a bit sick, and have gone to bed before 10 the last 2 nights which is both unheard of, and not a good idea considering the amount of work that I need to accomplish this week, both for my actual job and my extra curricular jobs.  So of course, I am blogging.

I’m trying to find something that motivates me while I’m working.  I’ve tried podcasts, live radio and various playlists and I always get so involved in the music or the story that I forget to work.  Honestly though, I could I not stop working to rap along with Rob Base.  I’d challenge you to sit still in the same situation.

It’s funny though how I used to be SO used to working in the middle of a call center with tons of noise around me.  After 2 years at home, I can only work in complete silence.  It’s very odd.  Similarly, when I was in the actual office, I could not handle the various dings, beeps and buzzes of computer applications, to the point where I required my staff to have the volume of their computers turned completely off.  At home though? I need the dings.  It’s weird!

And speaking of work, I need to go ahead and write the training that I am presenting this afternoon.  I need to fill 90 minutes and other than a hand written outline, I have nothing.

PowerPoint Ahoy!

Thoughts on Twin Pregnancy-Week 19

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Seriously, I could type one sentence and it would describe the past week: My belly…it is large. Beyond large even.  I don’t even know how I am going to make it 3 or 4 more months with all the growing that has to happen.

Generally though, I’ve felt pretty good–extreme hip pain aside.  They’re starting to do that clicking in and out of joint thing that they did late in my pregnancy with Hannah, and it is not the most pleasant thing I have ever had to deal with.  But I keep telling myself that the babies are healthy.  And this is the very last time I ever have to do this, so really I should just suck it up. Sucking it up can be hard though.  I am trying.

I ordered and received some nursing bras this week, and it was just in the nick of time as I was busting out of everything else.  I also ordered 4 shirts from 4 different spots on the website, and I must have really liked them, because aside from the colors, they are all the same shirt.  Pregnancy brain in full effect, my friends.

Ed and I read through the entire index of The Baby Name Wizard last weekend.  We agreed on nothing.  He continues to suggest names of family members…not because of a personal affection for said family members, but because he likes the name.  I suggested that these names are very familiar to him and that is why he thinks he likes them and he basically pish poshed that idea.  He also sugested Forrest for the boy, and honestly, I can’t even talk about it anymore.

We’ve decided as a whole that we’re not comfortable with the full blown shower concept.  Little parties to celebrate? Sure.  But I can’t get on board with asking people to buy me things when these are not my first babies, and it’s not as if I donated our other baby gear out of the kindness of my heart.  I sold that shit for cash money.  Which isn’t to say that I won’t graciously accept gifts, because, duh–I’m not an idiot, but I’m not going all out with a full blown registry.

We’ve decided on our short term remodel plan, which is to take over Eddie’s room, which was FIL’s room/apartment.  The whole thing needs to be gutted and redone, but it is cheaper than adding a second floor (which also needs to be done, but not in the immediate future). The room, which used to be a studio apartment,  is big enough for a nice sized master suite (there is a second bathroom in there that we don’t currently use) where we can have the bassinets close by the bed when they are little, and then when they are a bit older, section off part of the room for the cribs until they are old enough to share rooms with the other kids.  The room is at the back of the house, where the other bedrooms are at the front, and I really think it will work out well when we are dealing with screaming middle of the night babies.  I’m pretty excited about it.  We just need to get it moving. Unfortunately Eddie gets a bad deal here because he will be moving in to our much smaller room–the former nursery that still has Winnie the Pooh prints all over the walls–but the room connects to our attic and we think we can open up that space for him a little bit.

I’m excited to see how it all turns out.

Answering my own questions; other stuff

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I asked some questions on Saturday and now it’s my turn to answer them.  I love questions and answers.  It’s fun!

 

  1. What is your least favorite chore, and please tell me why. It used to be laundry for me, but since the kids sort, fold and put away all of their own laundry now (plus towels!), it isn’t so bad.  I think maybe litter duty would rank pretty high up there, but Ed is taking that one on these days because it’s hard for me to bend and scoop.  My least favorite chore at the moment is general upkeep in the kitchen.  I hate wiping down the counters, cupboards, fridge and stove.  It always seems to get a way from me until it’s gross. (Ok, not the counters..those get wiped all the time as I’m using them) But man, what I would pay a cleaning lady to wipe the grime off of my white cupboards.
  2. What is your favorite throw together quick meal? Probably tacos.  Ed and the kids like their tacos with just the seasoned meat, cheese and sauce.  It’s super quick and easy. (And concerning because our family of 5 easily goes through 3 or so pounds of taco meat.)
  3. Are you watching any new TV? What should I be watching? As far as new TV goes, we’ve picked up The Neighbors and Ben and Kate.  Both fun sitcoms.  Ed is watching Vegas and Last Resort, but I can’t get in to either.
  4. What is your favorite vegetable? I generally like most vegetables, except for peas who can die in a fire, but as o late, I’ve been eating carrots that have either been cooked to death in the crockpot with whatever meat we are having or have been boiled in beef broth.  Any green veggie roasted is a super winner too.

We spent our weekend cleaning and purging, and cripes, I did way too much.  But the basement is nearly clean, and Ed got the garage mostly cleaned out so he can get his trailer in and out for the winter.  It feels good to be accomplished, but I wasn’t really a fan of all the work.

We have more on tap for this week–a friend brought me 5 totes of baby clothes, and I found 3 random boxes as well, so they need to be gone through so I can figure out what we need in the way of clothes.  I’ve also got a bunch to be listed on eBay this week with the plan being for the extra money to be allocated toward cloth diapers. I still sort of can’t believe we are doing that (and neither can Ed), BUT really, I cannot justify the expense of diapering 2 babies when we can do the one time cost thing.

I said to Ed over the weekend that my ultimate goal would be to still be able to walk when it’s time to go cut down the Christmas tree.  He looked at me like I was nuts and explained that that is in like 3 weeks.  3 weeks! Christmas tree!  Whaaaat? I think we’ll have to go light on the decor though, because who knows if I’ll be able to put it all away.

With Christmas seeming so close, it really seems like the babies will be here soon! Babies! In my house! Will the novelty ever wear off? I don’t think it will.

Grateful Sunday

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November is a good time to talk about being thankful and grateful and all that jazz.  I’m not, you know, doing it daily on Facebook or anything, but a good once a week post will do.

This week, I am grateful for:

  • The kindness and generosity of the internet.  Without calling out specific people, I’ve been offered some pretty fantastic stuff as of late, and I am so so grateful to know these folks.
  • Being able to swallow coffee without throwing up.  Seriously.  The first 15 weeks of my pregnancy were made that mush worse by not being able to drink my coffee.  I not only can’t, but don’t want to live without it.
  • Knowing that we have 2 healthy babies growing inside of me, and that there will be both a fuzzy girl head and a fuzzy boy head to sniff.
  • Having a good job, even though I’ve been irritated lately.

What are you grateful for?

Questions for Saturday

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As with NaBloPoMo in years past, I give you questions for Saturday. I will answer them Monday.

  1. What is your least favorite chore, and please tell me why.
  2. What is your favorite throw together quick meal?
  3. Are you watching any new TV? What should I be watching?
  4. What is your favorite vegetable?

Have a happy day!

Friday Free for All

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  • Halloween was ok around these parts.  Cold and Rainy.  Hannah made it to maybe 3 houses before she was back and sitting on the porch with me to hand out candy.  She was bored before 7, and went inside where she promptly fell asleep on the couch.  I was sure she’d wake up sick yesterday morning, but I guess she was just wiped out.
  • I thought that maybe if I shopped for the babies a little bit, I might be a little less overwhelmed.  Ha ha ha ha…no. And Cait was with me marveling over baby shoes, and didn’t understand why I find them to be completely unnecessary and wouldn’t buy them, and it was just more stressful than it needed to be. I did buy them each 2 super cute matching outfits though, and shared a decaf peppermint mocha with Caitlyn, so it was an overall win.
  • When I showed Eddie the Little Brother Sleeper, he did a little dance and was all giggly.  This is a kid who rarely shows emotion, so for him to be legitimately excited…well, it just makes me happy.  He’s been in a very good mood since we found out. 4 sisters might have been a lot to deal with.
  • It’s occurred to me that with all the other issues I had at the beginning, I never spoke to my OB about delivery options. I don’t want an automatic c-section because I’m having twins, you know? I do want the safest possible delivery for the baby, but I’m not on board with not having options. So this is a conversation that is on tap for my next appointment, when I will conveniently have both of the big kids with me.
  • NaBloPoMo Ahoy!

More about Baby Names, and please help me

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At this point in all of my other pregnancies, my baby was named.  Maybe with some questions about the middle name, but always named.  I’m not entirely sure what the problem is this time around, especially because I am a preparer by nature.  I think of these babies though, and what their names are, and my mind goes blank and I go in to a mild panic.  I just have no idea! Maybe because this is my last shot at naming babies I am putting too much pressure on myself.  I sort of want their names to be perfect.  Ed is not being helpful, ever since the great Melissa debate.  He says that my dislike of the name, even though I did agree and allowed for Millie as a nickname, has ruined it for him.  He wants me to come up with names, and then he will agree or disagree.  I want an active 2-sided discussion.  None of this is happening.

So this leaves me making lists both in my head and on paper, and crossing things off, both mentally and for real, and mostly feeling like we will never ever name these babies.

Ever.

I’ve been calling them Thurston and Reba since Tuesday.  Just for fun, in a “we would NOT EVER call our kids this” kind of way.  I have to call them something other than Baby Girl and Baby Boy.

I guess now is the time for a list.

Here are names that I/we like that cannot be used:

  • Olivia -issue with our last name
  • Abby/Abigail- bad association from a good 12 years ago, and  our good friends’ daughter’s name.
  • Genevieve- Ed hates it
  • Vivienne- Ed hates it
  • Eleanor-was my grandmother’s name and she and Ed had a…stormy relationship.  Also my cousin has a baby Eleanor.
  • Henry- we just aren’t feeling it anymore.  It doesn’t lend itself to shortening/nicknaming which I am fond of (and NO to Hank)
  • Benjamin- Bad association from high school, sounds weird with our last name.
  • Samuel- Niece who spends a lot of time here, is Samantha who goes by Sam/Sami

Here are the names I have been kicking around as of late in no particular order:

GIRLS:

  • Elizabeth
  • Molly
  • Ruby
  • Leah
  • Lauren
  • Lily
  • Lyla
  • Julia
  • Jane

BOYS:

  • William
  • Andrew
  • Carter

So, yeah.  Maybe I should copy this whole post and email it to Swistle to dissect. Or maybe I should really just name them Thurston and Reba.  They would be fairly unique for sure!

Or maybe you all should just name my babies!

Yes, I vote for that option.

And we are having…babies!

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The big baby reveal was yesterday, and I swear, I didn’t think I was going to make it through the night because I was just so excited about it! Knowing just makes things so much different, almost like it’s more real.  For me, anyway, once we know the sex I feel like I start to identify with my babies as people rather than just some alien beings residing inside of my body.

I wasn’t a fan of our ultrasound tech.  She wasn’t nasty, per se, but she had no personality.  When she did speak, it was quiet and monotone.  She kept telling me that these babies sure were sideways, and I didn’t know if she was complaining or making a joke because there was no inflection to her speech. She was thorough and efficient though as she briskly stated “Baby A is a little girl.” and then 15 minutes later “And Baby B is a boy.” At one point she had me lying on my side for a better look at B, and she spent a crazy amount of time looking at his heart to the point where I was starting to panic. She said nothing to worry about though, and when the doctor came in to review, he confirmed the sexes and that everyone and everything looks perfectly normal.  Ed liked him quite a bit, but I was disappointed it wasn’t my favorite old OB.  She was the one to reveal the sexes of the other 3, so I thought it would be fun if she was there.  Grand scheme though, no big.

The doctor asked me whether twins run in my family…so that was nice. (eyeroll) He shared some things we already knew–that twins come on average 4-5 weeks early.  I shared my theory that we might be ok since the other babies were so large that things were nice and roomy for the twins to grow.  He said I may very well have some 7lb twins, but to really not count on my theory because that has not been his experience.

This of course has Ed freaking out about potential February babies.

But anyway! One of each!! It is so exciting! Boy Baby is a little bit bigger than his sister already.  They are kind of lying perpendicular to each other.  It is sort of odd.  We go back for another growth scan in 5 weeks.

I really enjoyed seeing shots of their profiles.  Maybe all babies look the same in utero, I don’t know.  All of my babies distinctly show Ed’s lips and my nose though.  Baby B, the boy baby on the top…already looks just like Eddie in there.  It’s uncanny.  We didn’t get a great shot of Baby A, because she NEVER stops moving.  I can see it though.

So now, we need to start thinking about names–Ed and I both decided we feel like going back to square 1.  And other things like where they are going to sleep.  And shopping!! I can’t wait to start shopping!

I really am just so excited. Another boy! Another girl! I will have 2 boys and 3 girls! Can you even believe it?

Thoughts on Twin Pregnancy-Week 18

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Alternate Title: TOMORROW! TOMORROW! TOMORROW!

That is if the hurricane doesn’t knock out power and down trees.  I’d like to believe that we are safe this far (what, like 800 miles) inland, but the news tends to disagree.  If it does get bad enough to cancel though, I suppose my measly anatomy scan is small bones compares to whatever else happens as a result of the storm.

Anyway!

We are finishing 18 weeks! I can tell that my uterus has moved up out of my pelvis.  The baby kicks are both high and low.  They are really stretching out inside of there.  And it’s weird, because sometimes it seems like they are right on top of each other, and other times they are in opposite corners.  It’s nice though to feel them consistently, and know without a doubt that they are there.
I’m waiting to start feeling them on the outside any time now.

The hernia pain is not constant, thank God, but if I am on my feet for too long, or I lift anything with both of my arms in front of me, it gets out of control and takes hours of rest before I feel better. I try to take it easy, but also, there are so many things that need to be done…it’s hard.  I’m trying.

My heartburn is another story.  I’m getting full on reflux when I’m just sitting around, whereas it usually only bothers me when I’m lying down.  I’m trying a switch to Prevacid to see if it helps.

Hannah won’t sit on my lap anymore because my big belly bothers her.

I am having ridiculous dreams. Dreams that make no sense at all.  Friday night, I dreamed that somehow, we took the babies out at their current size.  We were keeping them in my oval corningware dish, in the microwave, until they were full term.  I don’t even know what to say about that.  It was creepy to say the least.

My mother has decided to throw me a shower, which I think is just dandy.  I feel weird about registering for anything though, because it’s not like it’s my first baby.  And while I gave a lot of things away, I also sold and made good money off a lot of my baby gear.  I don’t want people to feel obligated to buy me big stuff, you know?  So, I do have an Amazon registry, which is really more of a running list for me, and I figure that if someone asks my mom about buying something big, she can direct them there.  Otherwise, I will be happy to celebrate with my family and moon over tiny matching baby clothes.

So anyway…TOMORROW! Can’t come soon enough!

Friday Free for All

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  • We have no actual plans this weekend and I feel nothing but relief.  I may take the kids to a Halloween thing at Town Hall tonight, just in case we get this Frankenstorm everyone is so up in arms about.  But once we get home from gymnastics tomorrow morning, I have no plans to leave the house.
  • Eddie took his last ever belt test at TKD on Wednesday. I may have cried.  He will start working on his black belt next week and depending on how hard he works, he will have his black belt test in 3 to 6 months.  I am hoping for sooner so that I can be there for sure.
  • Wacky pregnancy dreams have started in earnest, and I think it’s probably a good thing that they are fuzzy and only remembered in bits and pieces when I wake up, because even then, I am freaked the hell out.
  • I’ve been reminded a few times this week how great the internet is.  I am beyond grateful for the friendships I have because of it.
  • We’ve gotten the proofs for the kids’ school photos.  I would like to file a complaint because these are photos of big kids, NOT my kids.